Stuck
Oh yeah, that was definitely my hormones speaking in my last blog. Let's just say things have moved along and mentally I feel much better. No longer feel homicidal urges.
I haven't worked in forever. I took a week off, because we were going to Palm Springs and I'd already taken it off and I wanted to see how this flu would pan out (a lot of media hsyteria), and now I'm not working because they're doing state testing this week and teachers MUST be at school to administer these tests. I remember doing it last year. It's all part of No Child Left Behind. Then I'm taking a week off starting tomorrow because Friday morning we're leaving for Atlanta. Tomorrow the cats ARE going into the brink. Extreme sadness ensues. It's going to be a fight getting them into the carrier. That's always fun. Scratches for me and wailing and crying for them.
So Friday morning we're a-leaving on a jet plane! A flu-mobile. Haha. Kidding. I'm so excited because I get to see my crazy niece. I miss her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. She apparently has changed a LOT since Christmas. And I was so sick at Christmas I barely interacted with her.
I am still suffering from a major case of inertia. I am stuck. I can't seem to put any resumes out because frankly I don't think there's going to be any teaching jobs available, and well, I'm just STUCK. I have learned helplessness. Sometimes I think subconsciously I've had so many bad teaching experiences in the last three years I don't even want to teach anymore. But what else am I qualified to do? And what jobs are available in this economy? Nada! I'm stuck in almost every area of my life. It sucks. If anyone has any advice how to get unstuck I'd love to hear it. I actually bought a book called "Stuck: Why We Can't (or Won't) Move On" and hell, I've been too stuck to even read it. I just pulled it off my bookshelf. Dust off the dust jacket and it's time to read it.
I loooooooooooooooooove my new iPhone. It does everything - except get me unstuck. Oh - the one thing it doesn't do - voice activation. I'm stunned. HELLO APPLE? You're a bunch of fucking morons for neglecting this ONE feature. It was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo easy to use my Bluetooth on the road with my Razr phone and just touch my ear and say "Call Steven at home" and my phone would dial it for me. But does the iPhone have this incredible safety feature? NO! Apple thinks of EVERYTHING and really, oddly enough, the phone is the weakest link in the iPhone. What a bunch of morons. In July Apple is offering several new free updates to the iPhone and I'm praying voice-activated dialing is one of them. I can't be looking up a number to dial while speeding down the freeway. Idiots. It's so obvious it's almost like they excluded it on purpose.
I'm also looking forward to going away because on vacation your reality is totally suspended and you don't have to face anything. I need to start packing because well, it takes me a few days to get my packing shit together. I'm not only stuck, I do everything in slow motion. I should've had some kids. They'd get me going, haha. My life is technically 1/2 over and where the hell am I? Where am I going? Nowhere fast, as they say.
My foot is much better but not 100%. I'd say another few weeks and hopefully it will be close to 100%. It's been a little over a month since I took a header over the bench and smashed my foot into the concrete wall of the bench. Ouch.
Well this may be my most boring blog ever. Blame it on me being stuck.
Photo: My niece Ella, making one of the craziest faces I've ever seen on a toddler.
6 comments:
i've been stuck for a long time myself. but i am trying to do something about it, so that's why i am back in school, taking a course in something that's totally way out in left field for me. all i know are office jobs and photography, so this is a huge jump.
i hate being stuck. it sucks.
I could write a whole blog about being stuck! And at my age its even harder to change direction. Like Veleska, that's why I'm trying to learn something new. Who knows if it will lead to anything, but at least I'm having fun stretching my brain. I also move in slow motion and it seems like everything takes forever. Kinda like this lyric I know - everything is moving but I'm standing still.
Actually, you have been moving on with your life, and moving at a pretty good pace from what can I see. Look what you've accomplished in the last four years. I agree a vacation is in order. Give yourself a break. Read the book.
Anyway,I think we all sometimes wonder what the hell we're doing with our lives.
That picture of Ella is an absolute crack up!
In that picture, Ella looks like a character actor from a 1940s crime drama. "You're all gonna cooperate, see? We're gonna do this nice and quiet. Everybody hand over your money. No monkey business, see?"
Stuck, yes. I feel the same but i don't think it's reality. Life is a slow process that has occasional highs and lows. The real bit is in-between. And it's over much too fast.
And there will always be teaching jobs because people can't seem to learn how to stop cranking out masses of babies, even long after they can no longer afford them. So, don't worry!
Catz, you are a riot. This is just part of why I love you so much!
Thomas - you're cracking me up too. You've described Ella's facial expression perfectly!
OMG - today's word: priest!
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