FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so OVER studying for these two exams. I just can't do it - and to be honest, I haven't even studied that much. This really isn't like me. But lately I'm having a hard time concentrating on things for any real length of time. I wonder if it's the new AD. I'm blaming everything on that little fucking pill.

Seriously, I am the most academically inclined person I know, but I cannot stand to study for anymore g-damned standardized tests. I really just lucked out in passing the first two; this test on linguistics might actually get me this time and I'll fail. I can't fail because that means I'll have to study even more and even harder and my brain might explode and what a fucking mess that'll be to clean up.

It's the middle of the day and it's raining. I'm still in my pajamas. I'm sick of the rain too. Yes I am in a bad mood thank you very much. Really, I know we NEED the rain but Jesus, I want the sun. The rain can suck it for all I care. It's making me depressed and sluggish. Or that just might be my brain and the fibro. One can never tell.

I'm sleeping now because I'm drugging myself at night with Tylenol PM. I must be so sensitive to drugs though - the bottle says take 2 pills - shit, I can only take 1/2 of ONE pill and I still feel a bit hungover the next day. Two pills would probably put me in some fucked up coma.

Ok, I just tried to blow dry my hair into some shape resembling normal. Why? I'll just go out in the rain and look like Pam Grier circa 1977 in about two seconds flat.

I have no food in this place. I need to go to the store. I'm going to go get dressed and yell at the supermarket checker or something. Thank God I have therapy later. My aggression is scary today.