It's About Time!
I update my blog that is. I've been terribly lazy about writing. And now I'm in a class that requires nothing but writing. Help! Speaking of...
I started school last week. I'm taking an English methods class - which is essentially a class teaching me how to teach my students English using the best practices possible. It is going to be a SHITLOAD of work. The professor started the class out by saying "This should be a two semester class." Good news! I'm not so terribly fond of her either; she's a little smug and has some of that professorial arrogance one gets at the PHD and University level. In other words, she thinks she's hot shit. Eh. We'll see. I definitely think the class will be helpful to me - already I'm realizing how much I DO NOT KNOW in terms of teaching English. Help! I have school one night a week and not much else so time should NOT be a problem. I'm grateful for that. Also, my best friend Cheri is in the class too, so that is a big plus.
It's so funny - our whole class is made up of Type A anal-retentive over-achievers and I totally include myself in that category. Already two women have basically been told to zip it by the professor. They just go ON and ON and ON in class, talking as if they're the only ones in the room. It's quite annoying and it stuns me how people can be so clueless to their own inappropriate behavior(s).
However, if I can whinge a bit here...can I just tell you how SICK I am of constantly having to go back to school? I just want a teaching job - that's like being a student all the time anyway - if you're a good teacher that is. And school is so crowded! It took me 20 minutes to get out of the parking garage last night. Oh well. I know if these are my biggest problems in life I should consider myself lucky.
I have sadly totally flaked on the exercise front for the last three weeks. The first week of January I went and then BOOM - extreme inertia and laziness has set in. As such I've only lost a couple of pounds in the last few weeks. I'm still eating really well though. Also still attending my meetings and working the OA program which keeps me on track with my eating. At least I'm not gaining weight.
The Coffee Date: Eh, was a bust. Not that it didn't go well. I met him at Starbucks and we had a perfectly lovely conversation for a little over an hour but there was ZERO attraction on my side and seemingly none on his. He looked really different from his picture too. Hate when that happens. In fact, and I don't know how to say this without sounding mean or judgmental...but I swear I think he had man boobs. Now I'm NO Heidi Klum and I have a few extra pounds on...but man boobs...I just don't know if I'm ready for that yet. ; )
At the moment I am conversing with three other guys. I'm calling one tonight on the phone and have been emailing the other two. As I said, I'm not real fond of doing this stuff, but hey, it's getting me out there and it's the best way for me to meet people right now. I WILL keep y'all posted.
My mom is going to Atlanta on February 11; she'll be there for 2 weeks. My niece has been having some major problems - like constantly throwing up her food and my brother and sister-in-law need help. They are at the end of their proverbial rope. My brother just started a new job and my sister-in-law is running out of time she can take off. My niece has had feeding/eating problems since she was born (as a severe micro-preemie) and is now enrolled in an intense eating/feeding program study at something called the Marcus Institute. I pray they can help her. We also have to get to the bottom of why she keeps spitting up what food she does manage to eat. There are so many issues with my niece. I love her SOOOOOOO much and just want to take them all away. She is the sweetest little girl with a really great personality - and she's had really a tough two years on this planet.
My dad will have been dead for 14 years on February 12th. It's hard to believe. Sometimes he seems so distant - as if I never knew him at all. I feel guilty when I feel that way. Then other times I miss him so much I just cry. I don't cry too much anymore - but still, you never stop missing your parent.
I am seeing the cardiologist this Monday, the 1st, just for a general check-up. The important appointment is on the 26th of February - that's when I see the hematologist and he will start running tests to see if and when I can get off this Coumadin. I really pray I can get off it. The eating restrictions are a bitch and just getting off one more med would be nice. We'll see.
Gosh I feel like this blog has been a real downer; didn't mean it that way. These are just the things going on. Generally I feel pretty good and am glad to have the class to give me more to focus on in terms of my career.
Well, time to go meditate...or try to anyway. Hope everyone is doing as well as can be. I promise to TRY and not be as flaky with my next blog update.
Ciao.
7 comments:
wow, so much to say.....where do i start?
i know of the "PhD, University" types that you speak of. i just don't know where these people get their attitude.
you'll get through the class just fine. two semesters is not very long when you think about it. that's the equivalent of what i did when i was in school last year. and you'll come out very prepared. and you'll find a job soon afterwards.
good on ya for eating right. i hope you can find the motivation to go back to exercising. i know it's tough. but you're not gaining weight, so that's an excellent sign.
sorry your coffee date didn't go as planned. maybe something will happen with one of these other guys.
i'm so sorry about your niece. i hate seeing children sick. i wish there was something i could do for her. i pray that the marcus institute will help ella, too.
my dad's been gone for about 71/2 years. i feel the same way sometimes~~that he was never really here, that his very existence in my life was some elaborate dream. they same time heals all wounds, well, i don't know about that one, because i'm STILL saddened by his death.
good luck with the cardiologist tomorrow. hopefully they can get you off the coumadin soon. i didn't know you were on eating restrictions because of it. what can you not eat?
this blog hasn't been a downer; you just have a lot going on right now. just take care of yourself. that's the best medicine!! :)
hugz
haha~~that's obviously "7 1/2" years. it looks like 71 years. wow, if he's been gone that long and i'm not even half that in age, how in the world did my father manage that feat?? LOL
The eating restrictions are very odd. I am not allowed to eat foods with a high amount of Vitamin K in them. You see, Vitamin K will clot your blood. So if you take Coumadin to thin your blood, eating foods with a lot of Vitamin K will automatically make the Coumadin somewhat useless. These foods include almost ALL green leafy vegetables - and I LOVE salads. Also things like green beans, cauliflower, cranberry juice...just odd stuff but some of it I like. I ate so many green beans in the beginning that I completely threw off the Coumadin one week.
I can't stand that ph.d. arrogance either. all it proves is that they wanted to stay in the safe haven of school and avoid real life for the longest possible time. Maybe not all of them, but i know some with masters and that's pretty much what they did. wimps.
i'm sorry to hear about your niece. i hope they figure it out once and for all.
as for the date... man boobs are kinda icky but don't forget to look beyond the physical. Especially once you're over 35. We all start to fall apart. You might lose a prince if you don't look hard enough. They're not exactly wearing signs...
Are you having a stress test?
i know it's hard ot keep up on exercise. i hit it pretty hard in the beginning. still managed 2 times a week but back up to 3, and some long walks, too. May as well do that before hell comes back.
that's nice you're seeing films. they're so expensive tho, even the matinees here are now $7.50. Nuts! We talked about going to a movie yesterday, but i said we can buy a movie on pay per view for $5 or spend $15 at the theatre. I know you have to go out sometimes, but sheesh! Then there's popcorn, soda... it's over $20 or $30 by the time you're done. cheaper to go out to eat with a friend! or enemy, whichever.
Staci -
Oh no - seriously, I am NOT that picky anymore w/guys. If they're straight and breathing that's good enough for me. No, really...I know what you're saying and at my age I am not picky about looks generally. This coffee date guy was JUST NOT interested. I would've probably given him another chance (even with some man boobage) but man, when he left, he left quickly!!! I thought I looked pretty cute but maybe I just wasn't his type. I think men are still much more picky about what WOMEN look like. That's one reason I feel so much pressure to lose the extra weight. Sad, but true. I mean, I want to lose it for myself first, but also, I know other people don't want extra pounds on you either. It sucks being single. I'm sorry, I'm sick of it. I hate dating. I'm ready for an arranged marriage.
"I think men are still much more picky about what WOMEN look like. "
that is so true. and it's sad, too. :(
Not all of them. I have a beautiful friend who is a little chunky, and she's swarmed by men. I think it's a lot to do with how you project yourself, and she's utterly confident yet slightly vulnerable. Everyone loves her. I'm so jealous, i've always wanted to be that outgoing, charming and popular. Hell, who doesn't?
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